contentment & chaos

everything around me is in chaos and i haven't slept in days...
this computer screen is burning behind my closed eyes...
wide open...
closed...
wide open...
closed...

haven't had a shower or eaten a thing...
can't remember...
when is when?

yet

i am so...
so...
so...
so...
so-so...
content

knowing...

everything i have
and everything i haven't got....

i chose....

and i get to keep it
all...

contentment and chaos 'til the day i die...

if i choose...

and i choose...
and i choose...
and i choose...
and
i
choose

........................................................................love

the only thing that isn't here
now...

i choose

love



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