little black dress night

once dressed and ready to go....what color do you like? I am asked...red blue orange yellow....orange i say...presented with an orange wrapped trojan am i...lol...very funny...NOT...

learned to play craps tonight...scott bought me a drink tonight...saw my roommate's butt tonight...as jeanie (lovely & lively as always) pulled up her skirt while they lesbian danced in the window...sorry i did not insist on making a video email with the girls...dan liked that i joined into the spirit of the evening with a little black dress

spent much of the night watching birds on the couch outside with david...just met david...80's band dance partner vaughn's friend...one of the many men my roommate has dated a couple of times...he believed in my idea that if ornithologists watch birds then i could be a whorintholigist and watch the goings on...i theorized that there were many species...david believes there are only varying breeds of the same one..."all canaries are not the same" he said...i think i may agree...the angel girl was there and a girl from jersey...these two stood out from the flock...

drank little...danced little...but it was hot inside and i missed someone who did not come to join the festivities...as we left vaughn said i was the coolest girl in the place....lol....as we said our goodbyes, chef asked me to dance in the back away from the crowd...i refused...turned away and did my best dignified walk in really high heels out of the club...sometimes it's good to be the one bird who is not always caught up in the continual need to flaunt feathers in an eternal mating dance :)...(will this lack of need render me eternally alone?...maybe i care, but not as much as i need to to change...)

ahhh...a night home alone...dropped the roommate off at the house of her latest man...a little vodka...a little history channel...and some sleep...

signed...maybe not quite so blue....

Thurday night...and update on Wednesday

danced danced danced

someone who used to date an ex-friend kissed me...hmmmm
danced danced danced in the window for all to see
met a movie producer who is a juvenile ass
throwing ice....flicking noses

danced and danced with the girls
joy is a good thing
and cachasa
with cucmerbers and lime

wednesday's update:
party girl boot camp
power walked the bridge at 2 am

better to walk and talk with my best girl than to lay down and have the room spin

put down the drink...drop the cigarette
and
MOVE IT MOVE IT MOVE IT

KC and the Sunshine Band...
my my my my my boogie shoes....


signed....blue

some women are angels..and he didn't understand

a raven-haired beauty
in the perfect dress
for her perfect breasts
real
as she is real
her beauty true
latin, deep
a dark bright space
for love
as she is
for love
loving
perfection
what it means to be
female
feminine

i called to tell him of her
he wanted to
sleep
travel
think me engaged
in trivia

an earth angel
raven-haired and perfect
and the him
who just didn’t
understand




signed....blue

wax me home...a poem

music reverberating concrete
under my feet
i watch the fetching—
fetch
check mates
gaze down:
shirts, rivals, the slopes of noses

and

i
alone here
wonder if this half moon
waxes
or wanes our way home


the girl in the polka-dotted
newsboy cap
keeps trading it
for glasses

the boy with glasses
needs perspective
on the surrounding lack of
those worthy

judgment without reflection


as

i
alone here
wonder if this half moon
waxes
or wanes our way home


eyes turn down
glasses drain
djs meter a denouement


while this half moon

waxes my way home




-----signed,
....................blue